Sometimes people make u feel bad just for there own pleasure. Like u have no feelings or just a thing standing in front of them trying to defend your self. Well a lot of people can feel that way and sometimes i do.Like no one cares or is just to smart to care. Some people at our school make me mad because they are so smart and perfect and looked upon all the time and i can certainly say i am not one of them and yes i am very jealous of them. I mean they look perfect to me dress perfect and talk perfectly like they always know what to say at any time. And most of the time always get a's and b's on tests.Yep i can tell u for sure i am not one of them, but i wopuldnt really be myself. I am not the smartest and i certainly dont have perfect clothes and have everyone notice u! Yes there are people at our school like that and i wouldnt be so mad at them, but they are also me to me and just walk away from me like i have any feelings. i certainly know who i am talking about and i wont name them because i am nice that way to tell u the truth. So if u fit those dicriptions  know who u are learn a little R -E-S-P-E-C-T AND YES I CAN SPELL!

6th grade graduation is a time of the year that we really look forward to. A time where u can hopefully be yourself and enjoy the last of being a 6th grader. The girls get to dress up in dresses and hope that a guy will ask them to dance. The guys i hope wont wear dresses, but probably fancier clothes and i dont know what guys think. I dont know about any other peopke , but i am really looking forward to graduation. This year i didnt feel like i fitted in well i know i said before not care i meant it, but i never did i never feelt special or was not invited to the park or anything else. I never at any point of the year feelt that anyone cared except my friends abby, helen and of course marisa. I really love them and they help me through a lot. Some other people i had big problems with and that is why i do not mension them. So all those people out there that are not invited to things or do not feel special relie on your best friends to help catch u and if not a friend a stuffed animal you can cry with them tell them every thing and they wont say anything. So then u feel special in your own way.

I know a lot of people that have bad dreams one of those people is me. It can be really weird how that day was so happy and your dream symbolized a totally different story. Of killings being kidnapped by jack black having little devil people invade your home, having a giant cat attack your school, Being stuck in a dream world and can not get back to reality, losing your parents or having sheep with lasers attack u. Don't u ever wonder where they come from? I do i really wish i could answer that question, but i guess i really will never know. Sometimes u can wake up and still think u are in the dream well u are half way asleep and what happens then is sleep walking. I used to do that, but know i am back to talking in my sleep or havingconversations. Dreams can symbolize weird things, but they always come u can kind of depend on for a new adventure whether if it wakes u screaming or it leaves u with a big grin in your sleep. They are there and when u least expect it they come. So tonight when u lay on your pillow think of a dream that might await u and then close your eyes and take the journey to dreamworld and do not forget the way out of dream world by opening your eyes.

Sometimes in life u can feel like no one cares or loves u. No one even knows u are standing right beside them. Well everyone once in a while feels like they are in invisible. The feeling is hard to contain when u have no one to talk too. The reason i write about this is well a lot of times i can feel invisible myself. Like no matter how hard u try to talk to someone they dont hear u they listen, but do not really hear u like u are a mirror reflection, but not the real person. You really can not overcome the feeling of invisibility until the person really sees u and understands the meaning of what u are saying and can laugh with them and do not pretend to, To cry with and to be happy with and if u find that person weather being a best friend or a lover  when u find that person hold on to them and never let go.

Almost every month the 6th graders get to together and do a movie night. I made it up because it is the last year all the 6th graders are together. It is a optional thing and a lot of people dont go which is fine i dont care. The only thing is people yell at me for not picking a good movie or why that night or u are so stupid for doing that. I do not understand these people they should beglad i even thought of it! It is hard to find a appropreate fun movie. So i am sorry to those people that do not appreciate that i even take the time to arrange it. People at our school can be harsh, but for the people that do appreciate it well that is why i am doing it.